After what happened, my trust for you is a bit low. I do trust you its just that "feeling". I hate it so much because until now I just realized or maybe just pissed off now, I mean now! That's a bit long. You're so full of secrets. I'm not sure are you telling me the truth, well maybe some or are you hiding things from me :( I should not feel this way but I feel this way after that day. Maybe I was shocked because you have never done this to me or maybe I'm just I don't know what it is but I just can't accept. I do forgive you but I do not forget, you might think this is a little mistake but I seriously cannot forget about it and I do not like this feeling and I don't want to. Hmmm
Thursday, November 22, 2012
I like to think about my future a lot. I'm just the girl that can't wait to have her own family. Yeah I'm that girl. I'm that girl who cannot wait to be a successful woman, a wife and of course a mother. Yes I cannot wait to be all those above. I really wanna be a successful woman, I mean who doesn't right? I just want my own house, own car or maybe own company but not sure what position I'm in. Somehow I just cannot wait to be a wife, yes I get to marry with the love of my life and be happy with him. I wanna treat him well, spoil him and loving him would be my full time job. I also wanted to be a mother, of course I do wanna have my own kids, if it possible I want four kids, 2 boys and 2 girls. I'm gonna spoil them, I'm not gonna let my children to go through what I went through before. I just want them to have a perfect life or maybe better life than me. Not gonna let my children face the situation or life I had before and I don't want them to go through divorcy just like my parents did. I want everything perfect in my life and hoping my children would be better than I do now. I want them to take care their prayers unlike me, its a bit yknow sometimes you do it, sometimes you not. I rarely and I don't even know when I'm gonna change. I hope one day Allah might open my heart and change me someone better. Insyaallah. Its not that I don't wanna change, I do. The niat has been set on my mind long time a go, its just me. Its really hard to change and leaving my old life. Ya allah, why I'm saying this :S just hoping one day, Insyaallah :) Eh this changing its a part of my dreams too, why not sharing on this blog. Haha to be a success, wife, mother or better person, I gotta build or reach to that level or goal. I gotta work harder on my studies la for now, like I'm studying now so I gotta study well. Then after that I can achieve whatever I wanna do next but during studies or maybe now? I should have the yknow the changing in me, as in close my aurat and all. I really hope that one day I could change like everybody else did. Amin.
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Yes, Danial Hisham bin Amir. Yeap I still with the love of my life.. Euuwww sounds so corny but whatever I love this guy. We've been together for 1 year 2months 11days, yeap I'm still with this guy. Can't believe that I actually could last this long, weird huh? Longest relationship everrrrr. I know I don't say this but I wanna thank to my love, thanks for everything especially being so patience with me, like so patience with me. I know sometimes I could be harsh, ehhh always la en? But I just, I don't know. So sorry love :* Even I treat you like shit, I still get your hugs and kisses :D I can't imagine what will happen to me if you're died like I don't know, wont get married I guess? Eyyy gatal! HAHA just kidding la, haha insyaallah, who knows somedayyy. I guess that's all, na-ah won't share my love life here :)
Lots of ♥
Start new one? Shall we? So hi guys I'm back again! How's life? Life was... Well there are ups and downs. Anyways, my life getting interesting, somehow... Errr I don't know. Ohh you guys have missed my Sabah's life and Im in kl already :D yeap in KL for studies! Well guys, I study in kptm kl now and taking corporate communication something like mass communication and living in hostel. I don't feel any homesick when staying at the hostel, like not at all.... WEIRD! And say hello to my housemate people :D